in the music, the moment, You own it, you better never let it go (go)
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow, This opportunity comes once in a lifetime…

This was going to be a post about my love of music, its my life, my valium (and sometimes my speed lol), god i need music in my life, and yes, eminem is my guilty pleasure lol – but when i reread the first para, all i can think about is my kids, minime and manboy  and the kids at Ship (minime’s partners in crime lol) and i find it to be of the utmost importance that they (and all other kids out there) understand YOU ONLY GET ONE SHOT, DO NOT MISS YOUR CHANCE TO BLOW, OPPORTUNITY COMES ONCE IN A LIFETIME!

I had every opportunity handed to me on a silver platter – all of which i blissfully and wastedly tossed away like yesterday’s trash in the pursuit of the ultimate high.  My parents did me a huge disservice by giving me everything i wanted – i didnt have to work for anything.  They also screwed my head up royally, but thats a post for when im feeling particularly pissed off…

Because i took the low road (and boy was it low lmsao) – my kids werent able to have the things they wanted (i hate this fucking keyboard AARRGGGHHH), we were barely able to get them what they needed, and i’ve felt guilty about that all their lives.  I screwed up and they paid for it.

But thats why ive pushed education on them – i expect them to do their best, to be able to say, and mean it, that they did their best.  I never expected perfection from them as i know that it is not possible.  But being the mom i am, i rewarded good grades with mom sanctioned cut days – even kids need some downtime every once in a while…

I see minimes love of learning and drive to succeed and i am amazed.  constantly amazed (and worried that she’ll burn herself out) – and manboy is finally coming into his own (Praise Jesus) and exerting himself.  While minime is truly minme in looks, manboy is me all over again and holy crap do i worry about him.  But i think that he’s realized some deeper truths finally and realized that you have to work for what you want.  While i’ve joked that i raised my kids with the benevolent neglect method (well i really did, i suck as a parent lol) i believe they learned the truths in life that you cant always get what you want, and sometimes you get what you need – but ONLY WHEN YOU WORK FOR IT!.

It takes hard work and drive to succeed.  Things handed to you lose their luster and you get bored, needing the next cd, puter chip, or excellent high to keep  you stimulated.  Thats no life, trust me.  I’ve lived it, i know what of i speak.  I want more for my kids than i gave them and i want them to appreciate it because they earned it – not because it was given to them.  I want them (and all you Ships…) to be proud of your achievements, and also your failures – because failures teach you what your limits are.  You all are not made up solely because of your triumphs, you are made up of your tragedies as well.  I can only hope you all make informed decisions to minimize your tragedies.  Hindsight is always 20/20 – again, trust me.  I graduated from the School of Very Hard Knocks.  Cuma Sum Laude…  top ‘o the class and with honors.  I dont want that same heartbreak for you…

What i find extremely intense about this song is the last verse, which is what i’ve told my kids all their lives….

You can do anything you set your mind to, man.

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