but you cant come in… that gentle readers is my nice and sweet shout out to the washington dc “patrons” who’ve decided that rather haveing 3 or 4 iphones come and harass,um visit me daily, now send one and maybe 2 gubbermint embarassments to wander around my blog seeing what im talking about now.  lol and we pay these whack jobs to sit at a coffee shop on their  iphone 5.1.1, ip computer id 524ae1a481243315b3839e0c8d25ec00 at 11 am this morning, or on the 18th at10.51am on computer id 328920874c42f5a1addb36f11ccb7ee4, ip addy  note the different ip address?  and they think they’re so smart, which is most likely why some dc overpaid and overrated gubbermint bureaucrat hired them lol.  i used to think that we had the greatest nation in the world.  now i got some dumbass yahoo’s in dc coffeeshops “monitoring” my blog.  guess what boys – you keep showing up, i keep posting your iphones info for everyones amusement and with luck, for just the right person out there will upon my blog and can hack into your fone for shits and giggles.  oh the joy that will bring me.  rock paper scissors lizard spock boys – you lay off me, i will lay off you.  ask my family just how stubborn and cruel i can be.

speaking of family gentle readers, my darling daugher should be finishing up her research project thingy and heading back to college soon.  i could not be more proud of her.  that and having her senior year paid for by scholarship?  amazing. but she has always been amazing so i dont know why im surprised.  but that kid has always surprised and amazed me – from the moment at 2 or mebbe 3 years old when she told me, her father and family did you know that dog spelled backwards is God.  what child at that ages can come up with such a complex thought and express it so eloquently?  she most definitly inherited my fathers bwains and i know he lives on thru her and i am so pleased as i miss my dad so much (so long as she did not pick up his habit of being at work even when at home – my familys joke was if dads lips are moving and he’s not talking, he’s at the office.  pop was at the office 95% of the time lol).  i also can not thank my sister bear enough for what she did for tom and i and for things i didnt know, (now that the family gossip passed away 2 years ago lol) if you have a secret its kept lol.  bear – if you ever read this, thank you.  thank you so much for what you and little bro did for my daughter.  again, i am in your debt.  it annoys the hell out of me that im kept out of the loop of things, but that is my family after all.  im the black sheep and will always be considered as such and im cool with it.  i know that i know that i know that i can (well, mebbe not) count on my sisters for things that i simply can not do.  and mer, i am so very very sorry.  i hope you can forgive me.  i was angry and took it out on everyone.  this one we’ll need to talk on the phone because my stalker still has her little syncophants (they dont know how nuts she is yet) reading here and what i need to say is none of their business, but since i still dont know when your birthday is, how bout you call me on your birthday – if you want to talk.  i’ll understand if you dont. its all good.

then we have my son – my pride and joy.  my blue eyed boy.  he as you read earlier, just turned 20 and has turned into one helluva man – and i again, could not be more proud.  he had some lessons to learn in his first year of college and i think it taught him some lessons that you can only learn by doing it yourself.  we could have talked to him till we were blue in the face but it wouldnt have mattered – my boy’s just like me – you dont learn anything until you experience it yourself.  than and only then does it have any meaning for you.  but my son is smart enough to realize that and now has a different perspective on things – he grew from the experiecne.  that is something that in this day and age, does not happen that often as to many parents want to be friends with their kids and let their kids get away with murder, want to make their kids mistakes for them or dont even want to admit their little darlings could do wrong. thems some fucked up parents and is it honestly any wonder the kids are the way they are today (can we say whiny ows kids)????  its the parents who are willing to make the hard decisions for the good of their kids even when that decision eviscerates their heart and soul, and alienates your son, who have kids who are responsible, honest and worthy of being called Men and Women, upstanding citizens, true Americans.  i was willling to do that and alienate my son, the child of the other half of my heart because i knew the road he was going down and i did not want him to end up like me. maybe someday he will understand and forive me, but again, it was worth it to get him off the track he was on. bu we did talk a lot, we enjoyed going to the mall and shop then have lunch (m’boy’s beyond awesomesauce) but even when out on the road, we’d talk. i kept every one of those secrets my son. and i always will.  but man oh man does that boy have a sense of humor.  i will never ever forget driving him and a couple of his friends somewhere, mebbe the mill to go swimming and some song came on the radio (we had a deal, when he was with me, we’d listen to his music.. memories lol) and that boy sang whatever song it was as if it was coming from his heart.  im honestly surprised i didnt wreck jeepster i was laughing so hard.  my son is so fucking funny its awesome!  as for role models, next to my daughter, you cant find any better!

sigh – the dogs days of august are slowly coming to an end. its the 19th and its cold outside.  now understand gentle readers, cold to me is anything under 80 and if i have to put socks on i am especially pissed.  i do not like this weather. i do not like it no i dont.  my beloved likes it as its not to hot, not to cold and its coming upon the months of pleasantry – the 2 months of when he’s pleasant! FALL – not too hot, not too cold lol.. perfect weather for him. until the winter months close in and hes a pain in my ass, its too cold, i hate the cold, im not going to make it till spring (yes you will honey just shut up and get under another blanket) until spring when it not to hot, not too cold lol. and he’s pleasant again. but in between, during the winter when we get to layer on the cloths and watch our electric bill skyrocket (which i’ll be interested in seeing as this last month we’ve had our ac on practically all month and it was only around $85!!!).  that is why i wear as little as humanly possible during the summer months – so i can soak up as heat as i can to get me thru the winter.  i can only hope this winter will be fairly mild – but cold enough to kill the fleas and ticks and assorted bugs and ickys so the dogs will have fewer issues next year.  cause i really hate layering on clothes. 😦  but i do like keeping the bedroom window open at night.  sleeping with the cold air is a blessing considering i only sleep in a tank top and a light blanket lol.   my beloved lasts maybe an hour before he heads for the hills (ie the living room where its warm lol).

but we’ll be happy all snuggled up here in the hobbit house, with the hounds curled up on the floor naturally making it an obstacle course trying to find our way to the kitchen.  my beloved and i curled up on the couch trying to find something decent on tv and just reveling in each others company (and warmth lol).  now we just have to find a place for our charlie brown christmas tree lol.  but we have our home.  a home that is filled with love and lots of laughs.  i could not have possibly asked or expected anything better than this.  i am truly blessed.  despite the damn concussions i occasionally get when i forget to duck…..

and my gentle readers, i leave you with this – i hear you knockin, and im sure you know why:  <weseg>